It’s March. Can you believe it? I sure can’t. Do you know what March entails? Absolute insanity! I have recently been very jittery and can’t sleep, constantly feeling happy and sad, nervous and hyper–like a hummingbird! I can’t tell if it’s my hormones, the caffeine from the pain reliever or me just being me in a new situation. Whatever it is, I don’t like it at all.
It’s happening so fast. Time! I wish I could stop it. I need so much of it but how can we do all of the things we want to in a day, a month, a year or four? Maybe this is why people choose to stay longer than four years so they can do more, but at the same time they can do more by pursuing higher education sooner, too! Ahh, there is a flurry of things going through my head.
The most obvious that comes up is going to Clemente High School soon! I finalized the schedule with my committee members and we’re all set and ready to go! I wish I could go for every single day, but I am planning on taking my MCAT on the first day of spring break. I was even considering cancelling it, applying to medical the following year, just so I could be with my peers! But they strongly preferred that I did not cancel it and so here I am, freaking out about everything. I have much faith in their presentation skills, but it’s almost like watching your baby grow up (not that I have one, although my turtle Chompy counts in some respects)…you just want to be there throughout the whole process! Ah, I must keep focus though. The MCAT is around the corner and I need to get at least a 30+. Is it out of reach? Perhaps…I’ve been taking two full-length practice tests each week and trying to study as much as I can for the MCAT on other days. It sucks that I have two other exams to study for before my MCAT, as well as receiving allergy shots and going to research twice a week for 6 hours each. Maybe I should ask my PI if I can just come in once until my MCAT is over…or maybe I’ll have to cancel it and really just apply next year!
Ah, no no. I need to be confident. No more “we’ll see” or “if it happens it happens.” You decide your own fate and you get there if you believe it and actually do it. Being passive about these things will never get me anywhere.
So, here’s to all of you MCAT-takers + super pre-meds who do everything and deserve all the best!