I’m quite peeved right now.
I should be happy, of course, since I am out of school and should be “enjoying” my summer but for some reason I still feel like it’s not over. No, I’m not taking summer school…but if I bombed the organic chemistry exam, I might have to take it again! I looked on Blackboard for my final grade in both the microbiology courses I took and it was a little saddening. If you read my last post, you’d recall why I was not able to attain the A in those classes. I hate that I let things stick around until the point where it finally hurts my performance in school. Relationships aren’t easy.
There are some other things I’m peeved about, like how I can’t find my Wacom tablet at my grandmother’s place even though it should have been placed right on top of my Xbox. I really wanted to draw again this summer and while I could use the regular paper and pencil…it’s not the same. Besides, that was a birthday gift from my brother that cost $200! I need to use it, but I can’t find it…I hope my grandma wouldn’t throw it away…*sigh* There are more things I am quite annoyed of, but altogether I need to be more positive. NOW.
If I could take my sophomore year and rate it on the scale of 1 to 10 of my growth as a person intellectually, I’d say it went to a 5. What was I doing this whole year? When I go back and think about all of it, I definitely did accomplish a lot…but why am I not satisfied with the work I’ve done? When I think about the activities I enjoy the most, it really just comes down to my part-time jobs and spending time with family. The classes I took this year, particularly the awful science classes, were pointless. I hate how medical schools just want to weed you out with them. No one cares about the pre-medicine people. Any other pre-profession, even pre-pharmacy, has some kind of “cared” notion from the public. Isn’t that odd? Even I did not fully enjoy the extra-curricular organizations as much as I thought I would. It’s hard to find an organization that is ORGANIZED at UIC, and one that has a good leader who is always on top of things. I suppose the “we’re just students” excuse can work for some people, but not me. I can’t wait to meet the incoming freshmen next year to give them all the wisdom they need to succeed!
All right, I’ll stop with the unrest and rants. No one likes to hear someone complain, but rather they want to hear about the complaint and plan of action to make things better. And so, here is a compilation of tips I’m going to follow to achieve a better sense of self and create the motivation I need to succeed next year as a junior. Summer break is always the time for change and revival of enjoying your favorite interests! =)
- Take the more positive/optimistic side in everything – “I have lost my Wacom only temporarily…I hope I find it soon.” vs “I’m never going to find my Wacom. I hate my family. Why are they so freaking OLD and can’t remember where they put it?”
- Read a book for leisure – Anyone have a copy of the Hunger Games? I should probably first finish my Toni Morrison book.
- Write in a diary – Ranting with myself is more acceptable than ranting with/at other people.
- Eat fruit and vegetables – I need my nutrients!
- Exercise – I hate running, but I do love to stretch and walk around places…once I move in I will try to run a mile a day at the rec center.
- Stop depending on others – This one is a biggie for me. I don’t think I take care of myself very well physically and mentally, so I am going to try and organize my habits and make them a lot more beneficial for me and others.
I could probably include more but I’m kind of exhausted from thinking and worrying too much (hey, that could be an extra point…stop worrying!). Anybody watch the Avengers movie yet? If you do watch it, make sure you stay for the credits! There are TWO extras. I went with five of my cousins and my brother to watch it at Woodfield Mall. It was quite hilarious and helped me get over the current loss of my Wacom. Although when I came home, I really wanted to draw my own superhero and was reminded again of my Wacom tablet. Sad day.
This week I’ll be going into research to complete some experiments before leaving to Taiwan! I’ll be moving in to SSR Sunday and working at my campus housing job making websites and all that jazz. I’m pretty excited. The writing center will be opening half way through the 4-week session and I’ll be there to tutor anyone who needs help!
On the bright side of things, my skin is better. Last weekend it wasn’t because I was sick and miserable, but now I’m not sick and only slightly miserable! ^o^
EDIT: I FOUND MY WACOM TABLET!!! :D :D :D Now summer BEGINS!<3 I’ll post my drawings if I finish any. Hehe.